Many newcomers to the chaosphere ask where should i begin or what should i do ? which i guess is a natural progression away from the paths of indoctrinated thinking with a healthy dose of concern. The usual try some sigil magick seems to sit well but i personally opted for a different approach, to use the Media as a tool and weapon against ‘The Media.’ Why not ? after all we are manipulated on a daily basis by TV, Radio broadcasts and a whole host of other stuff which we may not fully see or even hear yet such things seem to affect our emotions. After several friends showed their repulsion towards Religious based beheading and other atrocities being spawned by the media I wanted a means to fight back, to create change and offer up an alternative world view. By coincidence it was at this time i happened to meet a few faces from KIA.
The first aspect of Xaos i adopted was Digital Art and learning how to manipulate images by layering one on another and keep going until i had a complete new image from the existing. After a few sad attempts i realized that such a notion required a little visionary input from myself and so it was. The next step was to remove all aspects of self importance, Ego based ownership of what i was creating, the overcoming of self centered pride and the insecurity that someone may nick my work ! I asked myself what the hell was wrong with me and why i had i lost the ability to just be open and share in my creations. To circumnavigate this proved easy, just throw out an add on social media offering to work for free on the behalf of others and so it began.
Within weeks i was having to refuse any more requests as i was so busy and my time was being consumed for no pay but it no longer mattered. I was having fun, bringing a little joy to the life of others and gaining some valuable experience. This later lead to a KIA Agent placing some fascinating art before me and me being somewhat cheeky and asking “Hey can i play with this one.” The agent to my surprise replied “Sure.” This gave me a wonderful lift as i was now in a small collaboration to work with another artist. So where is all the Xaos in this you may ask ? maybe there is none as that i cannot honestly answer, my mind was in some weird state of overdrive and a myriad of messages were flying about the place between myself and other Magickal Practitioners. In short the whole nine yards was hectic, Chaotic and somewhat rather disorganized on my part yet it worked and damn well, so i kept rolling with the ideas and trying weirder ideas within my art. Sleepless nights and endless days produced some imagery i was happy with as were those i was working for, until the day i came to acknowledge i had a flair of my own which seemingly appeared out of nowhere. It was at this point i approached Anton about starting a KIA Node, something i had no experience in whatsoever. Between three or four Agents I gained a mass of wisdom and guidance which carried the whole project forward, after a couple of weeks KT arrived. Now i could be imagining this but it all seemed to stem from Art. From a desire to attack the system at a personal level simply because it felt right to do so, not just for myself but for others too.
Within a month or two, the entire operation was established with mentors, friends and fellow agents helping me to push through some limited growth of my own and expand beyond my usual hemisphere. I remember describing the experience as being in close proximity to ‘a gay person coming out of the closet,’ by that i mean it takes guts to show ones colors to a stagnant society which in all honesty hates the likes of KIA Agents but it did not matter. I was not alone, I was not branded as stupid but did pick up the odd comment about being mad or weird. One day someone replied to one of my comments with “o you know how nuts that sounds ?” to which i quickly replied, “It only sounds nuts due to your own lack of self education, your own shallow perception of something you have yet to grasp let alone try to understand.” What my friend was seeing may have been a mere fractal of something far greater but either way we laughed about the whole issue, I then sent her to Agent Anton for a quick walk through about Egregores and their benefit, especially one named KT. So from a small moment of anger, a fleeting glimpse of change and a desire to know brought about an entirely new aspect of working magick.