Khmer Izanami consuming Absinthe


KIA retreat 2013


This years KIA Retreat was based in our home in Inverness. Some KIA agents arrived earlier in the week so the retreat unofficially began on Wednesday. We had a welcome supper at the Clachnaharry Inn, our local pub haunted by the ghost of Donald Forbes. We chose a table near to where his ghost likes to be and enjoyed a most delicious meal. We had a friendly chat with the chef who was more than pleased to talk to us about foraging for wild mushrooms. After the meal we walked back to our house through the woods. The path was illuminated by bright moon light and we could hear an owl hoot in a distance.

On Thursday evening we watched ‘Maybe Logic‘, enjoying home made chocolate liqueur made with double cream and a generous dash of chilli powder. Admittedly not all agents turned out to be big fans of hot flavours, which became an issue, as spicy things tend to mysteriously crawl into my cooking.

Friday meant getting up early to meet an agent travelling from Edinburgh. After a quick coffee at the rail station we caught a bus to Foyers. We went passed Boleskine Graveyard and house but this time we didn’t stop there. We decided to enjoy the waterfall and gorge walk down to the loch side. We all entertained ourselves with Foyers Effect although the waterfall turned out to be really narrow this time.


Strolling down the river we picked a few wild mushrooms such as brown birch bolete, hedgehog and cauliflower fungus. There was plenty false chanterelles growing in the forest and a couple of Fly Agarics amongst other mushrooms that we couldn’t identify.

We had a nice picnic on a small beach by Loch Ness, staring into its cold blue waters and soaking up the energy of this unique place. It was a good feeling to be charged up before a weekend of magick. We finished the walk with a cup of tea and coffee at Waterfall Café before returning home.


After a late dinner and a rest, we set up altar for the weekend and proceeded to play around with our newly painted Ouija board. We began by doing the Kia IAO centring ritual. It felt good and brought things into focus. Our aim was to talk to KIA egregore and ask them few simple things. We all had very little or no experience with the board which possibly contributed to this highly amusing evening. KIA was clearly having a laugh but we did get some insightful results and managed to identify some spirits talking to us: Oannes- John, Nyarlathotep, Hecate and Orion. Other answers might make more sense when run through the English Qabala cipher. All in all it was an interesting magickal experience and a great fun.


Saturday was sunny and really warm. After a lazy breakfast and coffee we eventually left the house for a walk down to the Caledonian Canal and the Ness Islands (another haunted place, although I don’t think you would feel it during the day ). Rabbits were running around below the Inverness castle in huge numbers. It was strange seeing so many of them.


We had a break in Leaky’s Café and bookshop, the largest second hand bookshop in Scotland, located in a converted church building. We browsed through some occult books in the miscellaneous section located opposite a large log burner. As usual there were many interesting titles and some of the agents left with a book to join their collections. We walked back home enjoying the sunshine.

It took us a while to get organised in the evening. Agent V was leading the ritual this time. We began by drawing sigils around the fire and after a while each one of us read a segment of the ultraterrestial invocation and we all repeated the chorus. Once we finished we burned the text by throwing it in the fire and for a while hung out in the garden, enjoying the evening.


Eventually Agent V gathered us inside around a small organic looking UFO made of silver balloons and flashing led lights. We sat down in a dark room, in a circle around the UFO. The mix of strange otherworldly beeping sounds from crop circles and UFO sightings was playing in the background as we began the Coherent Thought Sequencing.

The sacrament most of us partook in earlier was having full effect now. Most of us drifted into bizarre dimensions of reality whilst one held the space by staying grounded. We visited dimensions strangely related to each other yet different. The experiences included talking to the Masters of DNA living inside our cells, being controlled by a tentacled monster from deep space, swapping consciousness with a grey alien travelling in a space ship, traversing tunnels of energy inside neurons that seem to span across the whole universe, merging into fractal like structures resembling teletubbies and more. It was an intense and fascinating experience that each participant may want to describe in more detail in the comments, if they feel included to share.


Eventually the sound track fading signalled for us to return to Earth. We noticed that meanwhile it hard started raining very heavy. It seemed as if our magick brought on this downpour. After collecting the stuff left around the fire and preparing some good strong coffee, we all sat together and related our experiences of the ritual. We spent the rest of the night chatting and discussing our visions. There was a lot of giggling and excitement going on. Before going to bed we looked outside at the strange night world drowning in a thick, yellow mist and at twinkling stars above. It was a truly magickal night.

Sunday as one might expect was fairly lazy and relaxed. We went for a short walk to the hill fort in Craig Phadrig forest. The forest was damp and full of honey fungus. Drops of moisture were collected in small cobwebs all around the place. It was very refreshing strolling through. The mountains were drowning in the clouds so you couldn’t see them from the top. The waters of the firth were silver grey and you could hear crows in the tree tops.


At home we put down a pre-drawn KIA sigil on the floor and during the evening we all filled it up with small sigils, automatic drawings and significant symbols. One of agents took us on a journey into their dream scape in the fashion of a role playing game. We walked around the place familiarizing ourselves with it and its strange inhabitants. It was a very nice way to unwind. We all wondered if we will come back to this place in our dreams. At the end of the evening we all shared a Black Rat and focused on its energy. This served as a closing of the magickal time we shared.


On Monday I was waken up by clacking of geese flying pass in a large flocks. We had a coffee and a croissant for breakfast and watched ‘Subterranean Dreams’ (an film yet to be published). I prepared tomato and roasted pepper soup which got nicknamed ‘Satanic Soup’ because of its colour and the chilli infused oil that crept in somehow. After the meal we had another lovely stroll in the woods. In the evening, one of the agents left for home and the rest of us decided to have a closing celebration in Clachnaharry Inn. Each one of us had a couple of pints and some delicious haggis. We walked along the canal on the way and came back through the woods. Night was quite cold and very pretty. We talked a little about the weekend and our plans for the rest of the year before going to bed.


The ones who were still present on Tuesday enjoyed a day of watching horror films. We watched short version of Dumplings by Fruit Chan followed by 1957 British horror Night of the Demon. In the evening we enjoyed Nosferatu: Phantom der Nacht by Werner Herzog and The Gate by Tibor Takács snacking on home made macaroons and drinking some heavily peated whisky.


Order? Membership?

I’ve been thinking about some of the wording I used to describe KIA lately. The main wiki page said we were ‘A decentralised order of sorcery’.  And other parts of the site talk about ‘membership’.  Well, I don’t think KIA has ever been an ‘order’, and their is no organisation which one might be a ‘member’ of so what is all this talk of ‘order’ and ‘membership’?

I’ve updated the main wiki page now to describe KIA as ‘a decentralised network of sorcerers’.  It may not be the best phrase, but its better than ‘order’.  I’m also thinking that the wording of ‘membership’ on other parts of the site may be replaced with the term ‘participation’.  KIA doesn’t seek ‘members’ but ‘participants’.  We don’t ‘belong’ to an egregore as its ‘members’.  We participate in the egregore, as participants.  We each choose a level of participation with which we feel personally comfortable.  The word order gives the impression of an organisation.  The only order in KIA emerges from our collective participation.

Having an account on this website does not really guarantee participation.  Indeed there are over 400 accounts on the website but only a small proportion actively participate in the egregore to my knowledge.  And some sorcerers that do participate, don’t have accounts.

So enough with the old aeon language! I think it gives totally the wrong impression…

Kia IAO Centring Ritual

Following the excellent suggestion of Hippi to share more magical practice on the site, and her recommendation of describing the feelings of our practise, I thought about an exercise we can all take part in.  It is a simple centring ritual, sometimes known as a ‘banishing ritual’.  To participate in this group exercise, perform the following ritual in your own time and make a special note of any sensations and feelings that occur to you as you do it.  If you don’t wish to participate, kindly refrain from commenting on this post.

The ritual chosen for this exercise is the Kia IAO Centring Ritual I recently posted on the wiki.  I reproduce it below for your convenience:


  1. Stand still with one arming pointing upwards and one downwards, like in the picture of Baphomet by Eliphas Levi.
  2. Take a deep breath inwards.
  3. On the out-breath vibrate the word ‘Kia’, like ‘Kiiiiiiaaaaaaaaa’.
  4. Visualise Austin Osman Spare’s glyph for Kia over your heart chakra.


  1. Raise both hands above your head, palms together, as you breath in deeply.
  2. On the out-breath vibrate the vowel ‘I’, like ‘Iiiiieeeeeeeeeeeee’. High pitch.
  3. Visualise a pillar or axis of light extending from your heart up to the heavens and down deep into the earth.


  1. Lower both arms so that they point outwards to your left and right, forming a cross, as you breath in deeply.
  2. Vibrate the vowel ‘A’ on the out-breath, like ‘Aaaaarrrrrrrrhhhhhhhh’. Medium pitch.
  3. Visualise a horizontal axis of light that crosses the vertical one exactly at your heart chakra.


  1. Lower both arms, bending the elbows and form an ‘O’ with the hands, such that your thumbs are close to your solar plexus and your fingers near your navel. Breath in deeply as you do so.
  2. On the out-breath, vibrate the vowel ‘O’, like ‘Oooooooooooooooooooo’. Low pitch.
  3. Visualise yourself, (or the ritual space), enclosed in an egg, about which circles an Ouroborus.

KIA Retreat 2012 – Books, Cards, Films and Music

The second in a series giving Anton’s account of the KIA retreat.

An important aspect of the retreat was in the sharing of various items we all brought to show and share with each other, such as books, cards, music, film and instruments to play with. We were doing this even before the official opening of the Baphomet rite.


Members brought with them an assortment of books.  I can’t remember the names of all the books brought, so maybe my fellow attendees can fill the missing ones in the comments.

Proof copy Chemical Serpents. This was especially important for myself and Janice Duke since we have been working together on producing this book for the last couple of years, and I had just obtained the first proof copies so we could see how the text and artwork worked together for the first time. Janice also brought her sketch book to show me the original pencil drawings many of the images were based on.

Katya Bach also brought her sketchbook, and spent some of her time drawing in it to produce a rather interesting hedgehog-like troll critter. Another artist I wouldn’t mind collaborating on a book with at some future point.

Chicken Qabalah of Rabbi Ben Clifford by Lon Milo DuQuette. I remember having a flick through this book, although I didn’t get a chance to read it fully, or even finish the introduction. It seemed from a quick glance to promise an amusing but informative account of the qabalah for a beginner to the subject. Whether it would compare to the Promethea comics of Alan Moore in that respect, I can’t say.

Awakening Osiris. A translation of the book of going forth by day, commonly known in English as the Egyptian book of the dead. Janice made a beautiful reading from this.

Brown Magic: a manual for Brown Owls. This surprising book proved such a useful source of magic for the weekend that it will deserve its very own write up later…

Divination Cards

Typically we ended up with 3 sets of Thoth tarot.  Could have been 4 if Lolita brought her German language edition. I also brought with me my Key to the Kingdom deck.  These are not tarot, but playing cards, a so called ‘transformation’ deck, where each card is transformed into a picture, in this case imaginative illustrations by Tony Meeuwissen, each depicting a rhyme, often famous children’s nursery rhymes. I felt these appropriate for our Crowleymas retreat because in book 4 Crowley interpreted many children’s nursery rhymes in light of the esoteric mysteries they symbolised. Also I’ve found through practise that these cards add a layer of meaning to my divinations that contrast the heavily symbol laden cards of the Thoth deck to add a layer of context the reading would otherwise miss.

Another surprising deck was called, I think, the Bohemian Goth deck.

CDs and DVDs

Music and films. We had far more of these than we got the chance to watch or listen to.  On Friday evening I played a compilation that started with Crowleymass (mix mix mix) by HÖH/Current 93 and continued with Gilacopter by Revolting Cocks and featuring Timothy Leary. Other CDs played included For Beginner Piano by Plone and the soundtrack to Twin Peaks.

On Saturday evening Lolita and I shared the first of many films we have been working on, Subterranean Dreams.  In this Nick Coughlan discusses his theories on the connections between dreams, parts of the body as ways to tune into different forms of consciousness, time, the fiction of H.P.Lovecraft and Arthur Machen, time travel, precognition and other weirdness.

On Sunday morning Lolita and I shared our meditation short film, Golden Dawn, which comprises a beautiful golden sunrise over the city of Inverness. Sunday evening we shared a variety of our short films and Lolita’s animations.

Musical Instruments

Lolita and I brought with us a selection of drums, rattles and a flute, most of which we purchased in Avebury, although one drum came from the belly dancing supplies shop in Edinburgh.  These proved useful not just in ritual, but also in moments of playfulness throughout the weekend.


KIA Retreat 2012 – The opening.

On Friday 12th October 2012, 3 couples met in a lodge near to Boleskin House on the shores of Loch Ness for the first KIA retreat.  The venue had superb views of the Loch, self catering facilities and an outdoor hot-tub. Of the 6 persons attending, 5 were actively interested in magic whilst the 6th attendee got on with other things in another room during the time when we performed rituals of any kind.  On arrival we did make the small walk to the falls of Foyers, which was flowing far stronger than I’d ever seen it before, so much so that it appeared to be raining upwards.

Originally we had planned to open the event with a Gnostic Mass, but it became apparent that even the simplified version Lolita was preparing had too many complex parts for participants to learn in advance for a small group that hadn’t worked together before.  Maybe next time.

Mass of Baphomet

Our actual opening ritual consisted of a Mass of Baphomet. This took the form of a 5 stage ritual inspired by the ‘Aeonic Litany’ of Pete Carroll.  As the only participant to have even been in a Baphomet rite before, I was to play[1] the horse or invokee.

In stage 1 all 5 participants danced in a circle beating on drums and shaking rattles, raising the energy of the animating life force of the planet. At the climax, I (as Baphomet’s horse) proclaimed the first line of the litany, ‘In the first Aeon, I was the great spirit’.

This signalled the start of the second stage where the other four danced about me, still with drums and rattles but chanting names of nature deities such as ‘an’, ‘Gaia’ etc. I danced on the balls of my feet to imitate the dance of a being with hoofed legs as I felt the possession grow.  This stage culminated in the second line of the litany, ‘In the second aeon, I was the all creator, all destroyer, Pangenitor, Panphage.’

This was followed by the third phase. Here participants called on the names of Devils, such as ‘Satan’, ‘Lucifer’, ‘Lillith’ etc, but if I approached them too close they would ward me off with holy signs and gestures.  At the climax of this stage I spoke the third line of the litany ‘In the third aeon, humanity knew me as the dark one, the Devil’.

In the fourth stage I was met with silence as participants tried to avoid eye contact with me. This resulted in the forth line of the litany, ‘In the forth aeon, humanity knew me not, for I was occult, the hidden one’.

In the fifth stage, participants chanted names related to Baphomet as the opener of ways, including related openers of the ways from other cultures, such as Ganesha and Legba, and also older forms of the name Baphomet such as Behemoth, whilst making horned gestures towards me. Finally, in full possession I proclaimed the final lines of the litany, ‘In this new aeon, I come before you as Baphomet, the god before all gods, who shall endure till the end of the Earth’.

In possession Baphomet charged the sacrament that was prepared in a drinking horn, with three loud animalistic calls into it, before taking a drink and passing it on.  Baphomet declared the door open and soon after I felt my normal conciousness returning.  I could hold the possession no longer, and as Baphomet decided to depart I felt my body collapsing into a sofa from exhaustion.  As I recovered I stood up and thought to declare myself as Anton once again so as to remove doubt.

We continued to pass around the drinking horn until all sacrament was gone.   No more rituals were performed Friday night, but we felt the doorway to open for the rest of the weekend.  Further accounts to follow…


[1] Taking a leaf out of Tai Chi, where those that practise together say they ‘play’ Tai Chi together, we talked about playing magic together, and magical playings, rather than working magic together and magical workings. We do this not to detract from the serious intent of the workings so much as to emphasise the importance of pleasure, and to prevent us taking things too seriously.  If a small error is made during a magical play, we need not stress over it.  Stressing over such trivialities can lead to ruining a ritual more than the initial error itself. We do not mean to imply that the ritual was ‘just an act’ like a theatrical play.

KIA Speaks remembered…

On the original KIA website we had an innovative feature that allowed us to communicate with the KIA egregore.  Each member submitted 5 sentences, quotes or stuff they made up and then each time you loaded the page, 5 of these were picked at random.  I intend to make a similar feature again one day, but first I thought I’d make a record of the final messages left over from the original egregore, as recorded on

  • 2002-02-02 KIA says: There is no Way to Happiness. Free yourself from the chains of the liars in waiting. He points toward a sandstone “Laughing Buddha” effigy, which throbs and glows. Abandon all paths. Batteries not Included.
  • 2003-03-11 KIA says: Gentle is the universe not it be. Smash the control images, smash the control machines. That’s no moon… oh, wait yeah it is. It is the mortal’s tragedy that he can never accept this. Time to wake up, now.
  • 2004-02-02 KIA says: Party until sane and not a moment longer. Genealogical reasons. Everything is born out of Chaos. Om tare tuttare ture svaha. Remember to change your beliefs, and not simply accrue your favorites.
  • 2004-06-06 KIA says: They gonna light my way. Must I be for ever solving the changing symbolism of the wretched morality-called ‘I’? Suck my Chakra, and I’ll suck yours! Everything is true, even the false things. Aummmmmmmmmm.
  • 2004-08-10 KIA says: Good judgement comes from experience. Good judgement comes from experience. All these memories will be lost like tears in the rain, time to die Blade Runner. Die not to spare, but that the world may perish. God is Alive.
  • 2004-10-15 KIA says: Nothing is true, everything is permissable. It’s for madmen only. Play like you don’t need to work, Work like you don’t need the money, Dance like no one is watching, and Love like you won’t get hurt. T’aint no sin to slip out your skin and dance about in your bones. Growth.
  • 2004-12-10 KIA says: ‘You mustn’t say yes, you’ve got to say no,’ hissed the Head Torturer, nudging the suspect. Growth. Maximum Firepower. Ecstasy is in the flesh. There are no friends anywhere.
  • 2005-02-04 KIA says: Seek the brothers of darkness. Everything is true, even the false things. Free yourself from the chains of the liars in waiting. Fuck you not. Life is what happens to you while you are making other plans.
  • 2005-03-05 KIA says: Someone should teach cats physics, it would solve a lot of problems. My time coming, any day; don’t worry about me, no. We can’t stop here! Life is not a drug, but a drug can turn into life and you will then have lost the contrast between reality and illusion. Been so long I felt this way, I’m in no hurry, no.
  • 2005-04-06 KIA says: Relax, nothing is under control. I am half a man. One is not a number; it only is denoted when in reference to a second. You were here for the ‘big bang’ and you – every part of you – is everlasting. That everything around you give you its utter attention, think only of you, care only for you.
  • 2005-08-26 KIA says: On the contrary, though I remain no less sadly certain than in the past that sanity is a rather rare phenomenon, I am convinced that it can be achieved and would like to see more of it. How do you define real? It may just go where no ones been. We are making circles in the sand. Enchant long, But Don’t Hold Your Breath.
  • 2005-11-10 KIA says: Every living organism is a vehicle for the life force. All Gods must die. Amicus? When I had released it, I knew it would come back to haunt me, just to let me know it was still there! Why does the eye see a thing more clearly in dreams than the mind while awake?
  • 2006-04-30 KIA says: There is no spoken truth that is not past-more wisely forgotten. Trust the Process. If you ask too many times, from the oracle, you abuse wisdom. There are no more tickets to the funeral. A man in a room where the door only opens inwards will remain trapped in this room until the time he thinks to pull.
  • 2006-05-23 KIA says: That’s responsibility. To unify the the life force with will and desire to bend reality, is to cast Magick. The only clear view is from atop the mountain of your dead selves. The Mind In Fire is Mirror. A man goes to knowledge as he goes to war, wide-awake, with fear, with respect, and with absolute assurance.
  • 2006-08-13 KIA says: I Will Devise New Heavens. Exterminate all Rational Thought. New opinions are always suspected, and usually opposed, without any other reason but because they are not already common. Thing. DOMANI CAPIREMO CI’O CHE ACCADE OGGI… (Tomorrow we’ll understand what’s happening today…
  • 2008-07-23 KIA says: Rigidity can be good. Let’s make a deal… Reveal the Gardener, and Liberate the Gardens! Within the eye lies wisdom. What if there is no hell, or they don’t want us there?

23 Penguins

Things got a little stuffy on KIA a while back.  I went through a phase of taking things too seriously and I guess that may have had a negative impact on things.

In an effort to lighten the mood and return to form, I am bringing back the 23 Penguins of KIA, albeit in a slightly different form than the orginal.  To take part in the project, visit the wiki page and contribute…